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I haven't posted anything in a really long time!!! God, I think it's just because I haven't felt inspired or whatever lately. But... I've been in a really good mood lately. Despite the fact one of my friends is spending a year in Japan and me being super confused about like everything, life's pretty good. I'm just loving life right now, so maybe I'll actually write something happy!
It's doubtful though... I'm actually working on a piece right now and it's kinda depressing already and I'm not even close to being done. I mean, I tried to make it kind of happy, but I got all these ideas and I ended up making the main character have a crappy life. I already have an idea for the ending and it's really depressing... Maybe I'll do something about that and give it a semi-happyish ending. That's probably about the best I'll be able to do from where I've gone.
Well, I'm working on it! And I kind of wondered why everything I write is so sad but I'm one of the happiest people on this planet! I swear, these past few months, almost every day I felt like nothing could bring me down. Even when I snowed and I was freezing, I was still freaking happy! And every good little thing made me so happy!
Even most of my gpa dropping to a 3.5 didn't make me as sad I would normally be! Usually, I would be freaking out and sobbing, but this time I just cried a little then pulled myself together and started studying.
That's it! I've just been too happy to believe! And I love it! Happiness is the best feeling! <3

And I feel like my poetry is starting to get suckier and suckier... I mean, I'll write a good one sometimes, but then the next four after the good one are horrible. I don't know what's going on with me. This is the second time this has happened to me. The first time, I actually just stopped writing for like, two months... Yeah, that was hell.

I had to write a short story for Lit. class. This was the first time I've ever felt so ashamed of what I wrote. It really sucked. I mean, cliched, corny ending... everything was horrible. And one of my friends said "I like it! I really like the ending." That's how I know it sucks. She reads really cliched and corny books. meh... I'm embarrassed to turn it in to my teacher.
And when we do the poetry unit, I'm gonna fail so bad. She won't let us use any violence, gore or pretty much anything PG. Everything has to be G and happy and all good! Ugh...

so my brother kept coming and banging my door. grrr.... I'm gonna go hit him now. But I'm eating green tea ice cream, so that calms me a bit. Actually not really because I'm typing to fast from the sigar rush. Idk why I'm having one, probably the ice cream because of so much caffeine and sugar. GOD! i am typing so fast! anyhoo... just felt like complaining byebye!

So my little brother has a friend over right now and they came to ask me if i wanted to watch this movie with them. (to makes things easier... my bro=BRO, my bro's friend=FRIEND) I was like "no." *slam door* but then FRIEND was looking at my shirt and he was like "what the heck...?" and BRO was like "Oh yeah, see, they all have different expressions and ribbons..." (It's a Hello Kitty shirt with moods and ribbon on the hello kitty, right) Then BRO points to the cat that has a ribbon that isn't just drawn on the shirt (like, it's sewn on so you can feel it) BRO:"And look at that one, it sticks out." FRIEND:Stares at bow"I don't see it."  That bow happens to be right where my boob is you stupid pervert stop looking there! So I told them to leave and I slammed the door in their faces and locked it. Now I am super pissed because a boy 2 years younger than me was doing that. I'll kill him in his sleep.